Trusting God in hard times

   So yesterday my Father had a heart attack while visiting the Grand Canyon. He had always wanted to see it so he decided to pack up the truck and go camping there. Unfortunately, I am stuck at school because of finals. Anyway, my dad is one tough guy. This was his fourth heart attack I believe, but I am so thankful for the medical care he has received over the last ten years. His father died of a heart attack when he was younger than my dad so I am very grateful to have him still around.
   At times like this, I naturally lean on God more. It has taught me to pray more because I don't like the feeling of coming to God when I need something. I know He doesn't judge me, but I don't want to be like that. Since I believe in the power of prayer, I need to use it more often. I particularly love the verse that says, "for the prayer of a righteous person has great power as it is working." This just reminds me that although Gods will is going to happen, He still wants us to pray and rely on Him.
  I can't stop thinking about how horrible it would be if I didn't trust God at a time like this. I would be mad at the world and confused about the future. The scary thing is that I know that my father is likely to have more heart attacks, and along with his diabetes and heart disease, I am very scared of loosing him. My dad means the world to me and he is such a blessing. Yesterday he just kept telling me don't worry just trust God, we only want His will. Having someone with that kind of faith for a parent is something I thank God for daily. Along with his mothers influence, he is the reason I know Christ today and of course that means everything to me.
  Although this could be a horrible time in my life, it's not. I trust God and His plan. I want what He wants no matter the outcome.

Wedding bells

    Today is a special day because it will be my fist time, and hopefully not my last, being a bridesmaid. I feel so honored to be apart of such a special moment in someones life. I can't wait to celebrate this couple because of who they are. They are both kind, sweet individuals who deserve each other.

    It seems that most everyone wants to find that special someone to spend all their time with. As a christian, It can be difficult to find that person because there are fewer of us than your average people. It is definitely different dating when you are a christian. I have not experienced that yet but people tell me it's so much easier and I can imagine so. You do not have all the drama, and fighting, but you are always on the same page. It must be a breath of fresh air to be with someone who believes the same things as you and has the same hopes and desires.

    Although all of this sounds great, lately God has shown me just how great singleness can be. I have the privilege of focusing on my walk with the Lord. I think this is a great time to focus on others and not yourself. It's a wonderful season where you can submit yourself fully to the work of the Lord. It's a time in your life where you must trust God. Don't let satan put lies in your head. Just because everyone else is doing something, doesn't mean you should. 

   Today I went to my aunts house whom I haven't seen in a long time. She was married when she was young but her husband became an alcoholic so she packed up the kids and left. She has never married again and she claims that she never will, but she does not seem unhappy. The only thing she wishes she had was security.

    Being single can be a privilege but so can be being in a relationship. It is nice to be close to another person. God made us to be relational people but I think we must first be ok with being single before we find who we are looking for. And if its in Gods plan for us to be single, so be it! His plan is bigger and better than our minds can comprehend so we must trust it.