Blessed assurance

     I know that trusting God with your entire life is scary. It wasn't something I was ever eager to do, but it ended up being the best decision I've ever made. It gets SO exhausting choosing between God and a certain desire over, and over again. At the time you think it's an impossible choice, but then when you look back you're like "why didn't I do this sooner?"

     The best part is that no matter how many times you reject God, it means nothing. Paul is a great example of this. He wanted nothing to do with God and even killed people who loved Him. Did that change the way God felt about Paul? Nope. Unconditional love means that no matter what happens, you will continue to love that person. It doesn't matter if they lie, cheat, steal, or break your heart a million times, you are still going to love them exactly the same way.

     When I was younger, I thought love was a feeling. Then after loosing that feeling several times, I thought love was a decision, like when you get married. But after looking at the way God loves us, I've realized that love is our reason for existence. It's who we are. If we were not capable of love, there would be no point to life. We were created to worship, praise, and glorify God. 

     If we are not fulfilling our purpose, then we obviously aren't happy so we turn to anything and everything to try and fill that void. Whether its booze, friends, jobs, sororities, school, or guys, if that thing isn't Jesus, you will continue to feel frustrated and alone. You will feel like you can't trust anyone, that everyone is judging you, and that nobody understands you. Confidence in Christ can fix all of these things and its only when you trust God completely with your whole life that you start to see things differently in a new and marvelous light.
1 Peter 2:9